Friday, February 24, 2006

Retreating

"Life is no more than a cyclical flow of events. We're just pathetic beings on this even more pathetic world re-enacting an achetypal experience..."

To quote is to retreat behind language, a language that has been shaped by other consciousness. It is not the simplistic idea of borrowing ideas, but rather, it is your subconscious mind at work. We all just want to be happy, don't we? And that's what our subconscious mind is best at doing - Keeping us happy.

Once again, my bathing sessions proved more than just serving its primary purpose of keeping myself speck clean and smelling fantastic. I was wondering about the issue of a Selfish God that Christians believe in. Or should I say, submit to. As all might know how much I tend to mock over-religious people who preach about the glory of God and what not, and I don't do that based on plain stupidity. I think submitting to something without much conscious thought is stupidity, so I choose the other way round, the route which might potentially lead me to Hell. But that isn't a fearful thought, because going against your own beliefs is what scares me most. Not being yourself, not having the free will to think and believe what you wish to is a terrible feeling. At times, I really wished I was dead. I want to die, and experience, and trascend to the other realm. I want to know what's awaiting me at the other side. I'm just afraid of the method of death, because I absolutely do not enjoy slow painful deaths. What I do hope is that, beneath that coffin or amidst the ashes of mine, I would be fully punctuate with accomplishment of great things that carry my name, and that it would truly be an End. How nice, how beautiful.

Back to the issue anyhow - I was thinking about how the people in say, third-world countries or primitive environments, who do not have proper, formal access to even the knowledge of Christianity. I mean frankly, don't think everybody knows about Jesus and the Bible, I personally beg to differ. Would they too be subjugated and make subservient too? Would they too incur the wrath of God and be banished to Hell forever? Well if that's the case, I don't know what the hell is wrong with all these religious doctrines. Because not only is such a conclusion inhumane, it is totally unparrallelled to all the glory and beauty of religion. I'm becoming increasing skeptical about religion honestly.

But what if God really is that way? And perhaps He might have made his presence known to these backward people in a way or another? Well then, I guess we're all just screwed. And hence I quote again:

"God is dead: of His pity for man hath God died."

We are all such stuff as manure is made on.

You and I: We're just SHIT.

posted@9:10 PM

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